21 September 2014

Blergh

So I returned to work last week.  It was pretty awful.  But I really truly did take it easy, and when I would come home I would do nothing at all - not just because I was physically incapable of it, but also because I knew that was what was necessary.  As you can imagine, I was even happier than usual to see the weekend arrive.

Annoyingly, I have felt terrible, and have been completely exhausted.  I had no big plans that had to be cancelled or anything, but I had hoped the weekend would be pleasant, and though I've been happy to be at home on my own schedule, I've felt miserable.  It's just a good thing that The Tim, the kitties, and Dug are around, or it would be a total loss.

I had doctor's appointment this past Friday with the oncologist, who told me that this was going to be a longer and harder recovery than I could ever imagine.  Ugh.

But this afternoon is the first meeting of the reading group at Rosie's, and I've been looking forward to it.  I think - much like being surrounded by my family - it will be enjoyable, and make me feel better because of that.  Knitting, talking about books, and drinking tea I hope will be the perfect counterpoint to the knowledge that another work week starts tomorrow.

If nothing else, it will make for a more pleasant today.  And that is fine with me.
:-)

7 comments:

Dee said...

I hope the reading group makes the weekend a little better.

It's SO hard waiting for recovery to be complete. I know my recovery from surgery took way longer than I thought it would. Hopefully, someday soon you'll be feeling like a new person.

Alyssa said...

But you survived! :) I'm nervous about returning to work after a conference. I'm tired and sick and I feel like I need a week vacation... but hopefully once I go back to work I'll get into the swing of things.

Lorette said...

Please take care of yourself. You are really going back pretty soon after major surgery. Maybe part time for a bit? People are ALWAYS surprised at how long it takes then to recover from a major illness.

Nancy said...

Be kind to yourself this week. Hope all goes well.

Mereknits said...

When I had cancer and had radiation treatments for 9 weeks I could not bounce back. It took me over a year and then I developed adrenal fatigue and I was always exhausted. It takes time to recover from major surgery, major stress and emotional upheaval.
Take care of yourself and REST!
Sending you a hug,
Meredith

elns said...

I hope there are many enjoyments this week along with lots of rest. I'm glad you have The Tim, The kitties, The Dug and the reading group. You have such much more, I know, but I'm glad they are in your immediate happy zone. Sending you my healing, resting happy best.

Kym said...

One day at a time. I know it sounds trite, but it's true -- especially when you're dealing with healing and recovery. Take good care of yourself -- and find some joy in every day (even if it's less than you had hoped!).
XOXOXO