Where have I been? Here, just not blogging. I've had post topics in my head, but then didn't get around to writing anything. Then when I would have time, I didn't feel like I wanted to do it.
As a matter of fact, recently my life has been a series of "I Don't Wanna" things. I'm not sure why, as nothing awful has been happening, I haven't been sick, or any of the usual things that cause radio silence for me. Work has been moderately unpleasant, but I am fortunate in that I really do leave it behind once I leave the building. As a matter of fact, for Easter I took some extra time, and had a very lovely four-day weekend, never once thinking about whether or not I even had a job!
Lately, though, I Don't Wanna:
Read. I have an interesting book, but I can't get myself to concentrate on it and enjoy reading it.
Knit. I have lost interest in all of my current projects, and even think I may be read to frog one or two.
Clean up. I don't mean clean everything to within an inch of its life, I mean it's killing me to move something from the coffee table to the recycle bin.
Think. About anything much.
Cook or bake. At all.
Spend time with anyone. Even when I do, and have fun, I'm always glad when I'm on my own again.
Watch TV. A lot of times, I can entertain myself by watching TV when I'm not in the mood for anything else.
Listen to music. See above comment.
Move around. I have *plans* to walk more, bicycle, exercise. But I have not been able to motivate myself to do anything.
The worst part is, my mind wants to do everything - the rest of me just doesn't!
I am hoping that it is a temporary condition, like spring fever, or brief malaise, or even a serious attack of the lazies. Even though it's only been about 10 days, it feels like forever. And the weirdest thing is, I really do feel fine, and am not in a bad mood at all.
So for now, I guess existing will just have to do the trick. But I know one thing for now - I Don't Wanna stay like this!