Yesterday afternoon, I was finishing a project, and realized something that was an "Aha!" moment - so of course I had to go beyond that and consider other things, and had some interesting realizations about myself.
1. I am a worrier and I panic easily - but apparently, not about big things. Unlike most people I know, the idea that I could possibly get sick with COVID-19 has not been an obsession. I realize I'm in a group that has a more likely chance, but I'm doing what I can to avoid it, so I'm neither worried nor panicked over that. Rather, I'm worried/panicked - as usual - over what most people would consider small or insignificant things, or even better, things that have not, nor may ever happen (that last one is a lifelong superpower, btw).
2. I realized that by not having to go to work and be around my co-workers all day every day that a) I have been sleeping really well at night, b) I have not been stress eating, and c) I have not had a feeling of dread following me around all of the time. This must be what it's like to have a better work environment or be retired. (Note: I did find a project to work on from home for at least a few hours a day, so now I don't have to use up all of my leave time and/or not get paid. YAY!)
3. I have been getting a lot more done. Not just on my previously mentioned project, but on other things around home as well. See: no feeling of dread - I had not realized how that was exhausting me.
4. Someone from our craft group at work e-mailed me to ask if we could do a craft-together this coming Friday, since one was originally scheduled for that day. I realized that since we have a work account with Zoom, we could do it, and got it set up for Friday at lunchtime. The funniest thing is that nearly every person has responded that they will "attend," and I'm guessing a lot of it is because no one will be commenting something like, "Oh I can't usually take a lunch break, I'm so busy." One woman wrote back and thanked me because "I need this SO much - spending so much time with my husband will surely be the end of our marriage!" That just cracked me up! I realized that it will be fun to have those interactions with others at my workplace.
5. I realized that it was easy to set up a system to automatically dump the junk mail that we receive without having to handle it several times. The Tim gets really annoyed when I bring in the mail and automatically put the junk mail in the recycling - he wants to see whatever we got, even if it's not something he would ever care about or that applies to him. So now I bring the mail in, and he has 24 hours to peruse things. If he does, then anything not wanted goes straight to the recycling bin. If he does not, I add it to the teetering pile of things next to the chair where he usually sits. Then at some point, it will either fall over, or start to actually bug him, he'll sort through everything, and then HE has to deal with it. Perfect? No. But much less annoying for me.
Some of these were not necessarily life-changing revelations, nor were they complete news to me, but still revelatory in their own way.
Have you had any "Aha!" moments recently?