I don't think I'm finished with that word, however, I do feel comfortable choosing another. I mean, I am not necessarily the world's kindest person now, but I am better than I used to be, and at a minimum, I am more aware of those times I am not kind, so I can recalibrate. I consider that to be growth, and I regularly ask myself now if I am being kind, and/or how I can be kind. It has really made a difference to me, and to my view of the world. I would like to think it has made a difference to those around me, but it's not like anyone has come up to me and said, "You know, Bridget, you are much kinder than you used to be," so who knows.
This year, I'm ready for a new challenge. And so I have chosen another word:
Not meaning, that I am going to try and be more graceful, as I'm afraid that ship sailed long ago. No, what I want to strive to do is to live my life with more grace. To be gracious more than I am judgemental. To treat others with grace and kindness. And most importantly, to remember this:
"I will hold myself to a standard of grace not perfection."
This will be truly challenging for me. But I truly feel it's worth it. And worth the effort to try.