08 August 2022
Then July Happened ...
10 January 2022
This, That, and Last Year's Word
Well that weekend certainly whizzed by! Yesterday morning when I woke up, I just couldn't believe that it was already Sunday - though reviewing the day before in my head, I realized that yes, it was in fact Sunday and the last day of the weekend. Boo.
Our weekend was a mix of things. I made a small list of what I hoped to get done, and was able to check off the major things (the minor things are always there, so I don't feel too bad about not doing them). I always like it when I can do that, but still have time to relax and just enjoy the fact that it's a weekend. It helped that yesterday was icky and rainy here all day, so I had no desire to venture outdoors other than taking Hammy for some walks. He wasn't too crazy about getting wet, so he didn't want to stay out too long, either!
I finally decided on my word for 2022, but before I write about that, let's review my success or lack thereof with my word for 2021:
forward
Well, I remember when I chose this word, I was full of the hope and expectation that 2021 would be a year that just went forward for me and for the world in so many ways. I truly believed that the pandemic would move towards ending, I felt that since Joe Biden and Kamala Harris were going to be in office, things would definitely improve, and I also thought that things at work would improve, because I was going to try really hard to make it happen. Plus so many other things in my life that I was sure would make this word meaningful to me.
So ... this may not have been the best choice for me. The only thing that actually worked was Joe Biden and Kamala Harris being sworn in, but of course, only after the insurrection. And whereas, they were able to amp things up regarding vaccinations, stimulus checks, etc., almost everything else has been a deadlocked fight, and continues. And although the vaccine became widely available, it became a whole thing with people and their "freedom" and "Constitutional rights." So much for the common good.
There was - maybe two weeks? - where we all were told we didn't have to wear our masks 24/7, etc., and people felt a bit more comfortable, but then of course the Delta variant steamrolled in, and well, here we are.
And then, of course there was my workplace. The less said the better.
I did make some small forward moves - I got back into exercise on a regular basis. But for the one step forward, I went two steps back when I was injured and had to stop. Then we went back to work 5 days a week, and I ran out of energy to do anything but make it through the day. Depression had a good year moving forward, but I did not.
Granted, some things that made me feel like my word was a lost cause were out of my control. But I never really got myself together to make it work the way I wanted it to, which is the first time that has happened to me since I decided to choose a word for the year.
So I'm moving forward with "forward," and letting it go. Maybe sometime it will show up for me again and things will go better. I sure hope so!
Obama understands. 😉
01 November 2021
One Last Decoration, and Hello November!
10 June 2021
I For One Did Not Mind Wearing a Mask
You know I meant to post yesterday, but I was overcome with a huge case of Do-As-Little-As-Possible which of course as a lot of you know, is the type of malady that not only can come on suddenly, but one that has no vaccine and no accepted medical treatment.
But fortunately, it only lasted a day, and now I can actually not just write a post, but get motivated to so things, even if they are not major or not of great benefit to society overall. At least it's a step in the right direction, if you ask me.
Most places in the U.S. at this point are relaxing a lot if not all of their Covid-19 restrictions for people who have been vaccinated. Tomorrow, the City of Philadelphia will cancel the indoor mask-wearing mandate for any vaccinated people. I've been thinking about all of these seemingly sudden changes, and deciding how I want to proceed, and while doing so, I realized that once I got over the intial claustrophobic feeling of wearing a mask, I really didn't mind at all. And so, continuing to wear one - even when the state said we didn't have to - was not a problem for me.
Then I realized when I sat down to write this post, that it was also Thursday, and have decided that I would make this a Three on Thursday post. So here you go: Three Things I Liked About Having to Wear a Mask:
*these are all reasons beyond the obvious ones about not getting Covid, or giving it to anyone else, etc.
1. In the cold weather, a mask helped to keep my face warmer; in the warm weather, a mask helped me not feel my allergies so much, since it blocked a lot of the pollen.
2. I could frown, stick out my tongue, or just place a look of disgust on my face, and as long as it was not too elaborate, no one was the wiser. It was freeing to stick my tongue out at douchebags with no consequences.
3. This one is my most favorite - wearing a mask meant that for the last year plus some months, I have not had to deal with a single random male person of any age telling me to "Smile, honey, it's not that bad," or "C'mon sweetheart, give us a nice smile there." ZERO OCCURRENCES during the pandemic and it has been the Very.Best.Thing.Of.All. Granted, if someone had been stupid enough to say it anyway, I could revert to actions described in #2. But not having to even hear the words at all was the most wonderful benefit.
I would like to think that moving forward, when people have colds, etc., they will decide to wear masks to keep others from catching it. But I also really liked to think that people would band together during the pandemic to do the right thing, and that everyone who possibly could would get vaccinated once the vaccine was available, so I think I may be the only one saving my masks for when I am sick.
In any case, at least a lot of people DID wear masks, and I hope for them there were some benefits other than the obvious and necessary ones. I have to say, for me it has become automatic, so I guess going forward I'll have a new habit to break, at least for every day regular life ...
02 June 2021
Just the Best
14 May 2021
Exhausted
Friday, Friday, Friday, I am so glad you showed up at last! This has been one of those weeks when even though most of it was OK, one big bad thing happened to me at work that has left me emotionally and physically exhausted. It annoys me that one specific event can control you for a whole week. So I am especially glad that it's Friday and the weekend beckons so that I can relax and push the restart button.
At least Pip bounced back from his vet appt yesterday. I dropped him off at 2:35 for a 2:40 appt (you still can't go in with them), and expected them to call in about half an hour or so to say he was ready for pickup. By 4:00, nothing. So finally I called and asked if he was ready, and if he was OK (because of course I was imagining that they found something seriously wrong), and they said they had been trying to call us since about 3:15! The problem was, they had transposed the digits in the phone number, so no one at the wrong number was picking up (and they would have probably been really confused if they had). GAH. Anyway, I picked him up, he is fine and all is well. But I feel bad, because he was probably wondering what was going on and why I wasn't picking him up. The good news is that he came home, ate his dinner and continued on as if that whole blip never happened. I need to be more like Pip!
Clearly this a.m. he is just sleeping all of it off.
07 May 2021
Good Things
And no matter what else you do, I hope you have at least one moment this weekend when you are as happy and content as Pip is in this photo from the other day, where he was sitting with The Tim.
19 April 2021
Reunion Weekend
This past weekend was a big one in our house. First of all, The Tim was able to get his first vaccine shot on Saturday morning, which was a big deal for all of us! Vaccine eligibility opens up today to everyone in the city 18 years older and above, but he got a notice at the end of last week from the Dept. of Public Health site that his turn had come up. So he made an appt for early on Saturday, and now in two weeks he'll get his second, and by the end of May we will both be safe for public consumption! (Well, vaccine-wise at least.)
Also, on Saturday, Hamlet and I walked over to Washington Square here in the city so that the woman who raised Hammy as a puppy could see him. Her name is Robin, and we have been friends on Facebook for a while, but had never met in person. She was going to be in the city for a tour of Independence Hall with a group of other puppy raisers (and puppies!), and wondered if we could meet during the lunch break, since it has been years since she has seen our boy.
As it turns out, Hammy's dad, Spike, was her dog. He sired A LOT of puppies for the Seeing Eye Foundation, and Robin has been a puppy raiser for a long time, and she happened to get Hamlet as her 7th puppy to raise for them. The way it works is that the puppies are given to preapproved raisers, who bring them up until they are about 18 months old; then they go the Seeing Eye headquarters in Morristown, NJ, to see if they can make the cut as service dogs before being matched with someone. Those who don't make the cut are returned and or adopted out as pets, so everyone has a happy ending.
Well, as we entered the park, I heard someone say "Hi Hammy," and he went NUTS with excitement! I really think he remembered her voice. He was so thrilled and so excited. We sat and talked and visited for almost the entire hour, Hamlet got treats (I'm sure the highlight for him!), and I got to hear lots of puppy stories and stories about Spike.
This is a photo that Robin took when we first sat down and Hamlet was with her.
22 March 2021
An Overdue FO Post
I hope the day is a nice one wherever you are. It's sunny and supposed to be about 60 degrees Fahrenheit today here, so it truly feels like a spring day! Of course, that also means I'll have to have tissues handy, since I'm sure my allergies will be saying, "Yay, it's spring, let's really drive her crazy!"
Anyway, I wanted to share an FO that I actually finished last month, but forgot to post about. And since this blog is as much to document my projects as it is anything else, I wanted it to have it's turn in the sun, so to speak.
19 March 2021
Observations From a Birthday Week Vacation in the Second Year of Covid-19
As you may or may not know, I have taken this week as vacation from work. I usually try to take time off around my birthday, because why not? Last year, I had planned to do so, but then we were sent home for "two weeks, probably" after March 13, so I was home anyway, without any work that I could easily do, working from home.
Anyway, this year I have been working in our building on Tuesdays and Thursdays since this past August, and of course working from home (as much as I can in my job, which is a challenge), so I decided to return to my tradition, and I also decided to take the entire week as vacation. I have the time available to me, and really - where I am going to go anywhere soon?
Since this is the last work day of my vacation, I thought I would share some of my observations from this past week.
OK, this first part is something I've thought all of my life, but this past week has only made me a firmer believer:
1. WHY are Americans so stingy with time off? First of all, generally most people don't get a lot of vacation time, or holidays off, and then when you actually want to try and take that time, you're looked at like someone who just ate a baby! I know, I know - the Protestant work ethic, American productivity, blah, blah, blah. Excuse me, but that is just a way of justifying the crappy treatment most people receive from their employers. You ask for even a day off, and it's like the company will dissolve because you are not there - even if most of the time, your presence is either not acknowledged at all, or you are generally dismissed as unimportant. God forbid you take time for YOURSELF - I mean, they're already being so generous, what with evenings and weekends for your interests. And yet, in other countries, where people have been receiving much more generous amounts of time off, somehow it's all still standing in spite of that. I know some people LOVE their work, and love to be at work, but Work Is Not Life.
2. This week I had two meetings scheduled related to my work. One was with the person who is our new supervisor, who also happens to be the CEO of the place. This is until our current supervisor comes back from sabbatical, or at least that's what they are saying. In any case, we are not allowed [seriously, not allowed] to reschedule our meetings with him (he can, we cannot). And this one was for a "Performance Discussion," which is what our annual reviews are now called. (Puh-leeze.)
So, OK, I figured having to go to that meeting on Tuesday morning was something I could do and then go on with enjoying my time off. WRONG. Nope, after being told in the meeting that he could not figure out why I was still employed because he saw no reason for my position to still exist, and that I would need to amp up my goals in order to continue to have a job - well, let's just say that threw me for quite the loop! And as you may imagine, ruined my happy mood and mental health big time. So much so, that just yesterday afternoon, I started to talk myself out of worrying about it since I am supposed to be on vacation. And once again - when your time off is not really time off, that's just not fair. If we had not been doing Zoom meetings all year, I would have not been able to meet with this guy during my vacation - the meeting would not have been possible (trust me, I would have claimed to be in Lichtenstein or someplace if I had to). But no, since we could meet, we had to meet. I was also supposed to meet with the consultant hired at work so that she could advise me on being more of a team player. That was supposed to be yesterday. I sent her an e-mail saying something had come up unexpectedly and I could not possibly do it until I was back at work next week. (Technically it was the truth - bad mental health had come up - but even so, I decided I needed the rest of my vacation to be free from work stress and so that meeting was just not gonna happen.) Jesus Christ in a dress, is there no escape from work anymore???
3. Moving on from the ugly stuff, in truth, I am really glad I took a week of vacation. Even though the weather has been not that great, I have enjoyed being able to be at home and [for the most part] not have work crap hanging over my head. I have been reading, knitting, and being lazy, even if I had other plans that didn't end up happening. (Admittedly they might have, had I not been so depressed/upset/thrown off for a couple of days, but there you are.) Would it have been nice to be able to go out to breakfast for my birthday? Yes, but since I hadn't planned on it, there was no disappointment there. And I like being at home and on my own schedule. So although there were no particularly special plans for the week, it's been a good one.
4. I had a *very* slight reaction from my second Covid vaccine shot. I felt fine for the rest of the day when I got it (this past Monday), and then overnight that night I woke up with chills and a low fever. I felt a little bit crappy when I woke up on Tuesday morning, but by lunchtime I was fine. I'm absolutely sure that whatever the reaction is, it's still better than coming down with the virus!
5. This morning we had an "international" kind of car trip, stopping at a few places. First up, The Tim wanted to go to the Asian market for some things, so we stopped there first. Then we stopped at the Italian bakery where they have ZEPPOLES every year on March 19th for St. Joseph's Day, so we'll have those for dessert tonight. Then on the way home, we stopped at a Middle Eastern lunch place where the make the absolute best grilled falafel sandwiches ever! We brought things home, put away what needed to go into the fridge and enjoyed our sandwiches. It's been years since I've had one, and I am happy to say, I was not disappointed. So we're definitely eating well today. 😀
15 March 2021
Oh Excuse Me? You're Upset That the Clocks Moved Forward an Hour??
Well, imagine what it feels like to wake up and realize that for you, it wasn't just an hour, but a YEAR! 😉
Overnight from Saturday to Sunday, a lot of places in the U.S. turned our clocks one hour ahead ("spring forward"). This always causes a lot of whining and hand-wringing, and frankly it really doesn't bother me one way or the other, just the same as in the fall when we turn the clocks back ("fall backwards"). But this year, *my* clock sprung forward a year overnight from Saturday to Sunday! I went to bed at the age of 64 and woke up at the age of 65!
12 March 2021
Friday Funnies - A Year Later Edition
Remember when we were all so innocent that when things closed down, we thought it would just be "a little while?" I remember a year ago tomorrow, March 13, we were called into a last-minute meeting at work to say that we were being sent home due to Covid-19 rates rising, and we would be quarantined "for at least a couple of weeks, but maybe as long as July." And I can remember thinking that being quarantined until July just sounded like crazy talk!
Mona Lisa understands.
05 March 2021
Random Thoughts for a Friday
How has your week been? Mine was fine - nice and uneventful at work (thank God!), pleasant enough weather, and some good reading and knitting. It's really been a nice, ordinary, quiet, and unremarkable time, and that feels like something that is different than usual.
Which means that I have been thinking my random thoughts. Which means I'm going to share some of them. Which means you have been warned, so if you get to the end and think "So?" - you have only yourself to blame!
- You may have seen this image or versions of it over the last couple of days:
- Last night for dinner, The Tim made the pasta dish that is all over TikTok apparently (I really don't pay that much attention to TikTok unless someone I know sends me a link, but apparently someone sent him this one). Our verdict: It was yummy, but at least for us, a bit too salty. We love feta cheese, and use it regularly, but for whatever reason, either the particular block of cheese we used, or the combination in the recipe of ingredients made the dish taste particularly salty. We have gotten out of the habit of adding salt to our food (well, The Tim has - I never really was a salt person to start), and so when we come across something like this, it tastes like we have consumed a salt lick! We might try it again, with the usual kind of feta we have to see if that changes the outcome.
- I had requested this for Christmas, and ended up receiving it for Valentine's Day. The Tim said he ordered it early in November, but with the mess that the mail service was at holiday time last year, it didn't arrive until the middle of January. No matter, though. I put it on the table next to my side of the bed. And I have to say, it's cheaply made when you look closely, but when it is turned on, it is So.Very.Pretty! It gives me such joy to see it, and even when lit in an otherwise completely dark room, has a pretty glow that is comforting light, but not too much light. At the time, it was on sale for $19.99, and as much as I love mine, it's only barely worth that price as far as the quality of it. But oh how it brings me joy!
- I had a stunning realization the other day, and that was that I realized one of the things I missed the most during this pandemic was lipstick - ??? Now, I have to qualify that by saying it's not like I am a lipstick fiend - I have a few, and they are all colors that I like and think look good on me. I would always put lipstick on in the morning before I left the house, and then it's not like I reapplied it all day. But I always felt that it gave me an extra pop of color to get started. I stopped putting it on when we all started to wear masks, because a) you can't see it, and b) it just smears off on the fabric of the mask anyway. But the other evening we were getting ready to have a Zoom session with my niece and her husband, and I decided to put some on for that, and only then did I realize how much I missed wearing lipstick! Odd but true.
- We have recently been watching Lupin, and enjoying it so much! Both of us enjoy thriller/mystery/crime stories, and this one is really appealing. This one is not necessarily anything new or vastly different, but it's fun to see the sights of Paris, and the premise is a good one. There's even part of an episode where the protagonist inadvertently reveals who he is, which does not generally happen. We recommend it, if you have access to Netflix.
- Today is apparently National Unplug Day, when we are all supposed to unplug from computers, phones, etc. and give ourselves a break. I am clearly not doing that, but mostly because I don't overdo any of that, to be honest. Particularly on weekends, I may only check online stuff once or twice a day. But I know for people who a glued to their phones and other screens anyway, the pandemic has only increased that, so I hope for some it will be a beneficial thing to try.
20 January 2021
New
Goodbye to this:
"They were careless people. They smashed up things and creatures and then retreated back into their money or their vast carelessness or whatever it was that kept them together, and let other people clean up the mess they had made."
-- F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
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Hello and welcome to this:
We turn to the Lord to receive these, our brothers and sisters, into eternal peace and to comfort all of those who grieve the loss of a loved one. Let us with one heart, commend those who have died from this virus and all of their loved ones to the providential care of the One who is the ultimate source of peace, unity, and concord."
-- Wilton Cardinal Gregory, of the Archdiocese of Washington, at the Covid-19 memorial, January 19, 2021.
08 January 2021
FO Friday - The Last of 2020
I know that plenty of people have moved on from 2020 big time, but I still have a tiny bit of housekeeping to do before I can completely get into the new year. (And frankly, it seems like it's still 2020 in lots of ways in my opinion.) In any case, let me share with you my final FO of 2020.
31 December 2020
Perspective on 2020
Well, to hear everyone else talk, the entire universe is anxious for 2020 to be over, and people are already celebrating today as much as tomorrow.
Not me. I think it's disingenuous to write off an entire year as terrible, because first of all, if you can do that, it means that you made it through the year. Secondly, I don't want to live my life focusing on only what comes next. If you only live in the future, you miss the good in the present.
(Also - remember people who kept saying "Oh my God, I can't wait for 2019 to be over - bring on 2020! Well, watch what you wish for.)
In the overarching sense of time and this past year, of course it was tough. And heartbreaking. And frustrating. And in so many ways, not good at all. I don't know anyone who wanted the Covid-19 pandemic to happen, or who wants it to continue. I'm not talking about that, because that is something that required a whole 'nother level of thought, behavior, and caring (or none, if you are certain people who shall not be named here because we all know who they are).
But guess what? People still had birthdays. Babies were still born. Things could still be funny. You were free to keep loving your family and your life. Even at the worst of times, being around to experience all of it was better than the alternative.
At the beginning of the year, I choose the word "Attend" as my One Little Word. Not in the sense of attending a party or a concert or whatever. In the sense of pay attention, attend to the world and your life. If anything, the lockdown and the pandemic only helped me with all of this.
When dear friends lost loved ones to Covid-19, I was able to feel their sorrow and do what I could through words, prayers, and actions to help. It likely didn't help that much, but paying attention to their grief gave me the chance to know that they needed love and friendship more than ever.
Because none of us could really go anywhere, I learned to pay more attention to my everyday surroundings. I noticed the true sweetness of not just my husband and our pets, and how we all *attended* to each other, but how the world outside, in our garden, or our neighborhood all attended to each other. The birds sang no matter what, the squirrels chased each other up and down and all around for God knows what reasons. Geese and sea gulls still flew past, making noise and headed someplace where they felt they needed to go. Bugs and insects still flew around, to plants, flowers, and into the dirt to do all they things they need to do (even mosquitoes, my archenemies, goddammit!). I spent more time walking around than ever before, *attending* to more because I wasn't involved in so much else that didn't and shouldn't really matter so much.
I appreciated the nice days when I could get outside for a nice walk. I despaired of all the rainy days (there were way too many around here, while other places that needed it got none). I still hated heat and humidity, and still wish(ed) for a decent winter with some snow. I celebrated my birthday the first weekend of shutdown, and found ways to celebrate everything else as time continued.
I learned that I disliked certain things and certain people even more than I believed I did. (I won't go into that here, because a) you probably can guess some things, and b) knowing the others won't change your life for the better.) I found truth in the feeling I always had that if I could ever retire, I'd be pretty darn content (nice to know, but unlikely to happen anytime, especially anytime soon). It was frustrating to not be able to just say, "I think I'll go to ____" tomorrow and be able to do it, but it was/is rewarding to know that not only am I not sick from Covid, but that hopefully I didn't contribute to anyone else getting it.
And don't forget - we voted and got rid of Donald Trump - a true highlight for me!
Don't get me wrong, it will be nice to be able to see my family who are all out-of-town sometime again, or spend a day at the shore in the summer, or even just decide that I'll walk into Center City and meet a friend for lunch. But I have to be perfectly honest - I'm not sorry that the world slowed down and even if forced, other people had to start "attending."
To paraphrase one of the songs from the musical "Wicked"
Who can say if I've been changed for the better ... but because this happened ... I have been changed for good.
Congratulate yourself because you made it to today. Let yourself be sad for the losses, and happy for the good, no matter how small. Thank whatever/whoever you believe in that 2020 is on its last day, and you are here for it. Do it today, because when tomorrow comes, this will be the past.
Enjoy your New Year's Eve - drink a toast to this past year, and then look ahead and drink another one to 2021. We can't know what it will be, but we'll all be there anyway.
24 December 2020
"Until Then, We'll Have to Muddle Through Somehow"
Happy Christmas Eve! One of my favorite days, filled with joy, anticipation, bustling around (though granted, this year, the "bustling" is at home), and thinking of those you love, both here and otherwise. I am writing this post not just for myself, but also as the final entry in sprite's 2020 Virtual Advent Tour.






















